feeling dull~
havent been blogging these days. until today, i suddenly think of lotsa stuff. i dunno what i am thinking aso. jus feeling dull and sad. mood swing. hais` trying to find out what am i sad abt. i mish my frens? or lil' boi? or worried abt o level results? yarh. i am darn worried for my o level results. it will be out on monday, 28 feb. i have a bad feeling. i think i will do badly. hais` i try not to think pessimistic. but couldnt cos when i do my paper i knew sure jialat de. all the "what if" qns flooded my brain. what if i couldnt get into the course i like. what if i cant eben enter poly. what if the people around me will be disappointed with me. what if.... this has been bothering me these days. how am i gg to face everyone when i get my results. hais~ *cross my fingers*
jus browsing thru' my computer stuff. i chanced upon the story which i wrote in the past. the sillyness of me. read thru' the story again. reliving the memories of me and him. the stupid me who thought of a stupid plan for his bdae. hoping that the plan will be a success, but failed terribly. stew nid him to rescue me. so paiseh. do i stew hab feelings for him. i duno. either i stew like him or i have already become numb. i'm confused. how desperately i yearn for him, i couldnt get. what i got in return, is only a bucket of tears. how hard i tried to let go, the more i cling on to it. all i depend on is just a ray of hope, slowly diminish-ing into thin air.
stucked at home these few days. duno where to go. what to do. i'm lost.
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