feeling

wont be blogging much this time round. think i cfm going to move house soon. it is just a matter of time when my parents found the ideal house. and for sure that it wont be in the east anymore. perhaps clementi. bukit batok. somewhere around this two area. surely, i mish my friends in the east. cos i know meeting them will then be more difficult as i cant stay out longer already. and nightriders are mostly to the east(i think)..

i mish-*

went shopping with baobei shirley a few day ago. for all her laopo, dear, darlings etc de valentines presents. emm.. helped her chosen a few of the prezzies. dunno is her responsibility to buy, or mine. cos it is more like i choosing loh. while she pays for it. haha! the most expensive one is her laopo's one. victoria de. hope they all like their prezzies when they recieve it. as for me and baobei, we have yet to find a pair of friendship rings that we both like..

sighs-*

sometimes. somehow. do you feel that everyone is like a stranger to you. even your friends. somehow sometimes i feel this way. it felt as though they arent in my world. or they dont really wish to be in my world. like as though i am a hermit.. being a geng pi zhong. or felt as though i am rash at my words that i may have hurt them. then cos them to slowly dislike my presence. and they dont care for me anymore.. or even dont care for me at all from the start. then i would wish to isolate myself then. maybe i am just too sensitive? i know such negative thinkings are bad. but cant be helped. emm.. i wonder if anyone felt this way before or so...

i wonder-*

people have commented that i am really wasnt the same as before. like i am more solemn. like i didnt smile as carefree as i did in the past.. perhaps it true? thinking if when i am with different people, i protray a different image. like to this gang of people, i am more carefree. while with another group, i may be more solemn.. i dunno.. or i really lost my smile at times? lost the sense of happiness? can i find it back? i want to be happy always. so simple yet so tough to achieve at times..

people's comments-*

**maybe moving to the west will be a new beginning of my life. maybe i will change again. unpredictable- but hopefully changed to a better life**