devon and tears.

she has left centrepoint. the last day working with her is on saturday, 3 June. Thought going to have a chance to have supper with her, but her girl came to look for her. So no more supper with her!! sighs- went home and sent her a msg, she didnt reply. saded i thought. The next day comes, working without her seems argh! bored man. luckily got yani and jari to entertain me. LOL. knock myself on the shoulder against the storeroom railing or whatever it is called. wah! pain loh. sian.

then thinking if could go drinking with devon and yani they all nots.. but then not cfm yet.. so thought dun have ler loh. planned to go home already, then in the mrt, reaching city hall liao, yani called and say got go.. sian! take back somerset loh. machiam like play mrt sia. LOL! then waited for them at the food street beside Le Meridien. waiting.... from 10 plus to almost 12mn loh!! rotting lerh. finally they finish work and we four go meet devon. and her girl. emm.. happy to see her.. and kinda mixed feelings when saw how imitate they are. they like keep kissing or touchy loh. aiya. duno how to say. maybe i am not used to such scene.. or it is due to her. aiya. duno ah! slack there and crap... till 2plus then go home.. share cab with devon and her girl. kinda think i am a lightbulb sia. so awdward.

okay. done abt her. follow by workplace. jari.. emm.. well, abit not really like her.. cos she abit fierce to me.. =X then later she started entertaining me.. like doing stupid things.. make me argh. cant stand her. LOL. jiu okay with her lerh.. esp. when on sat she kinda hurt her leg or what.. then limping... abit like poor thing. =X

then angelo.. the newly transferred ASM(assistant store manager) to replace marcus.. dislike him.. cos he is so lame and unreasonable. i wanted to go and buy drink, he didnt allowed cos he say one of the colleague has bought canned drinks for us already, what for go buy liek that.. it is like, ya.. as if i drink the flavors he bought? bloody hell, somemore i wanna buy is mineral loh. then later, nbm. dont buy jiu dont buy loh.. then he say " go lah go lah.. if not desmond(store manager) say i bully u".. then shortly after he came and ask me, : "have u bought your drink yet?" i told " haben" then he say " why leh.. give u chance to go.. then dont go.." i dulan ler loh.. " dont wish to buy lerh." he then continue saying nonsense: " why wanna go leh.. ppl got canned drinks for u all mahs.. why? wanna see her boyfren huh? or wanna shop around? " LIKE WHAT THE FCUK loh! siao. u think i am not responsible in doing my work is it? that during work, i go off for personal stuff. wth* and please lah.. stop crap with me.. u are so lame loh!

then later he was bored, so he came and like talk to me as though i am a customer: " hi miss, how are you? " then i replied: " i am fine " then he say... " no, you shld say i'm fine, thank you " I sian 1/2 lerh loh. until i reply him " I KNOW, IT DEPENDS WHOM I AM TALKING TO.. NOT TO YOU " wah. then he nothing to say.. and i left for another area to fold clothes.

i know i am damn rude loh. but to him only loh. so lame and argh! not my style of working. working in timberland now is a hassle. dreaded to go work. sian! khakis not ard nvm, come such lame person. sian!

emm.. yesterday was came to TP to study and print notes.. surprised that when i reached home, saw the guy whom i say was attract attention(AA).. so qiao sia.. dont expect him to be back to TP as well.. lols` but he is leaving tp lah, while i just came. LOL. and today, saw him again.. well, of cos will see him today de mahs. having accounting paper mahs! LOL. afterall, the paper is okay lah. jus a few mistakes here and there. =X sian! forgot what that thing called and blah.. sian! nbm. its over! holiday lerh!! though projects are still existing.. LOL!

rather like someone whom i know it is impossible to be with, then with someone that has even the least possibility be with. i dont wanna false hopes. jus dead hopes will do. jus admiring the person alone is enough, no need the person to know. it will only cause embarrassment and awdwardness. and dont wanna feel the hurt again, the hurt inflicted in a relationship. though i may seems strong and xiao(1) sa(2), but i am not. pain inflicted in a relationship isnt the worst, the worst is when the scar is deepen by friendship involved. to be frank, i still cant forget what happened. i can forgive, but never can i forget the kind of feeling i had when i heard the news. something that i fear most, happened. not just a normal person, but a close, impt person i treated as that is involved. i am just a girl, unable to withstand such pain. tears*