14feb, i will give up.

wednesday, 07 feb'07

i mish you. very very much. that i took up the courage to msg u a forward msg.


but u didnt reply. it broke my heart.





why am i so cheap. to bear such lil' hope? hanging there, waiting... aint fun. it is torturous. omg. **slaps myself** i tear almost every now and then, when i think of you. i felt so stupid. why am i letting you to control my life. thoughts of you that filled up my mind.


i tear so much, that now... i dont even have tears, my heart just ache. ache till it numbs. that it numbs me up. that i feel blank.. u have already taken my soul. soul-less me..



i dont care how pple see me. what matters to me, is on how u see me. on how u feel about me. yet, all answers are blurred. that i dont feel like asking anymore. if you are a single bit interested in me, you would have contacted me. just a msg will do. but u wouldnt.


u distracted me. from my life. again and again.. halfway when i am with my friends, u will jus pop up. in my mind. that i am distracted from them. would u jus go away?


i think i made up my mind. the last day, will be valentines day. of me, bearing hope of u liking me. after that, i will jus constantly remind myself that you will not like me. not now and not in the future. we are jus friends. that occasionally will meet up or so. yah, 14th feb is that last day.



no clear-cut answers on that day, and i will give up. =)) this promise, i made to myself. nevertheless, i can continue to like you. hahs! but, with the fact that i know u wont like me de. hahs!




tmr culinary, yet i am not asleep. so dead. again, i will be a zombie. in culinary. hahs!













imishyou, devon. muacks*