i am no longer the center of attention.
probably will never be anymore.

you may dread talking to me on the phone
cos of all the attitude i'll show to you.
u may dread it so much that you would rather not talk to me over the phone.
but have you thought of how and why i am reacting in this way

before the issue been solved,
if i could be nice to you on the phone, maybe it is the day where i feel no more.
or probably would not even call you or ask you to call me in the first place.

when no one understands how you feel, or at least the person whom you are most concerned bout doesnt understand how you feel, it seems pointless.
it seems tough to live on.
but i have to, dont i?

i will get used to it. get numb to the pain. get emotionless.
eventually.
either you're ready first or;
i will feel no more first.