smoking + her. feels.

projects. deadlines. lessons. had biz etiquette test today. may seems easy, but tricky. checked my mid sem test mark for accounting with teacher. only got 34 upon 40. sian! careless mistakes. and unable to remember the the complete term for it. argh.

skip lectures today. cos went to see doctor. though i am not late for class. jus that my throat is too irritating. kept coughing when sleeping. waited damn long for the registration and payment. as they are using new system. blah~ though i am early, like about 8.10 jiu reached the polyclinic. the clinic already being packed with people! no money see private doctor ah! only when there's really a need to, which means at night. hahas! ps* polyclinic dont open till night time.

in search for computer labs in TAS, but no!! having lessons. argh. so stayed in library to discuss about project. split up the work. with the newly bought, Marketing for Hospitality and Tourism textbook by Philip Kolter. thanks to adrian who helped me to buy in TP first. hee. =))

oh ya. yesterday night, went to meet adrian they all, cos i wanted to get the marketing book from him. then had dinner with them. maybel. farhan. derek. tat. kay. adrian. and me and maybel learnt to smoke by FARHAN. hahas! we tried on a cigarette. which.. is so unexpectedly tasty~~ haha! cos.. it is chocolate cigarette! not a real cigarette lah! it is bought by fangyong to be given to farhan while he is back in hongkong. spotted it and we decide to play with it. took some 'smoking' pictures! hahs!

what's with that stick in your mouth?! is it a cigarette? OMG! u smoke....... bad bad bad girl. HELL YEAH. i smoke. chocolate cigarette.. imported from hk. not cheap ah.. =p bleahs. trying to be lame here. ha!

looking forward to see you again. though almost everytime i see you is with her presence. yes, i am envious of her, of having you. cos i know i couldnt have you at all. but.. not having you may not be a bad thing cos i know i wont have those problems you had with her. maybe we are better kept at this distance. at least i know sincerely how u feel and stuff like that. which she might be unable to. cos u cant tell her, if not she will explode.

i am just envious of the things you did for her. the effort you put into the relationship. the importance of her to you.